Monday, November 13, 2006

I Hear Voices

I hear a voice in my head. Do you?

Saturday I had a little melt down. I ended up spending about 3 hours alone, walking, listening to my mp3.

I discovered that the reason I had the meltdown was that my alone time had vanished. With my husband home recouperating and my father-in-law here to help out, I no longer had my quiet time. And I literally mean my quiet time.

I am not used to hearing the television on all day. Or voices constantly talking. Except for maybe the voice in my head (there is only one at the moment), I am used to bouts of silence.

So on Saturday, I walked. I had Rascal Flatts blaring in my ear, I Melt played over and over again in my own version of meditation. I just needed to tune everything else out so I could focus again on the voice in my head.

Writing helps me listen to her. As does silence. I've discovered that I like the voice in my head. I like what she has to say. She keeps me sane.

And she's awfully smart.

I hear my voice. Do you hear yours?

3 comments:

Mr.Blogger said...

Good ramblings.

Keep posting good ones !

Especially the three wishes is a mind wracking one !

Alwyn said...

Other than the usual self-talk I think all of us experience, it's been a long time since I've had an actual voice in my head telling me what to do. I do get ideas and stuff that come to me during quiet times. I guess we experience what we're open for experiencing when we're able and ready to receive them.

On another note, I've had a pool in my backyard for 3 years now and I've never gone skinny dipping either. Sad, huh? Chunky dunk? I've never heard that one before. Pretty funny.

kim said...

As I get older I like her more and more and hear her more too! I know what you mean. You soooo don't strike me as a country girl!